My Feelings

I don't know what I want anymore. I've been avoiding someone I like and I don't even know why. I just really want to talk to him. Why would we talk to me? He probably thinks I'm mad at him or that I'm annoyed by him, but I'm not! But the other guy I like, I don't want to lose him. I'm so screwed up! I thought I had decided on one already, but I guess I didn't. I can't make up my mind on anything. Even the simple things...
I wish someone would just want to talk to me. I'm tried of starting the conversations. It's someone else's turn. I want to feel accepted, to feel wanted, to feel like I belong. I don't belong here though, I don't belong anywhere. The only place I belong is in a corner to deal with my own faults.
Take me away... please... I can't stand it anymore!