What I think

I thought I was over him, but it looks like I'm not. Everytime I hear his name, my heart aches. Everytime I think of him, it aches some more. Maybe I need more time.... I just need something else to focus on. Which is really hard, because I can't just focus on one thing, it's always multiple things. Which gets really fustrating. I get really distracted. Like right now all I can think about is him & Edward (but that's totally different lol). I just want to be over this, I want to move one. But maybe I'm subconsciously not allowing myself to move on, is that even possible? Probably is if you have a screwed up head like mine. I thought I could get over him if I liked someone else, but it turned out I don't really like that guy as much as I liked him.... What if he's the one? What if he's my soulmate? HA HA! I doubt it. Man, romance movies have definitely screwed up my head. Maybe I need to leave, maybe I just need to get away and figure out stuff without having people breathing down my neck.... I don't know.

"God help me! Help me get through this! Only you can help me."